26 years ago today, everything changed for me!
That cheesy little Hallmark sentiment about being a mom means you forever have your heart walking around outside yourself, it’s gospel truth.
And that first little person God writes into your story, introduces you to yourself as a mom. It’s not that you love any of your children more than you love the others but the order in which God brings them into your life, it’s distinctive. There’s something about first-time motherhood that can’t be replicated.
JJ Heller describes it like this,
“Through your eyes this beautiful life comes into view.
Through your eyes I didn’t see ‘til I saw it with you.
On a grand adventure, I’m along for the ride.
And I feel it all again for the very first time.
On a grand adventure with you by my side ‘cause I love to see the world through your eyes.”
(A Grand Adventure)
That’s how it’s been for me.
To stuffed animals turned “real”,
To block towers and duplo architecture,
Questions about “Why?” And “What’s that?”
Piles of picture books,
Backyard circuses, holiday programs and homemade movies,
Learning to ride a 2-wheel bike, a lawn tractor, then driving a car.
There were cottage industries, creative creations and entrepreneurial endeavors,
Conversations about faith and femininity, politics and people-groups,
And a voracious appetite to read, to know and to understand.
We’ve worked together, played together, learned together, worshipped together, travelled together, celebrated together, grieved together, and in recent years started hiking together.
It hasn’t always been easy between us. Growing pains have left us both nursing our own separate wounds. But here’s the thing, neither of us ever did this gig before each other and there’s a learning curve on both sides. That, too, is part of the adventure.
Now-a-days, I mostly watch her back, from a distance. Listening. Praying. Trusting God with her unfolding story.
I marvel at
Her beautiful soul!
She’s already lived plenty of her own epic adventures, but today, on her birthday, I celebrate the ones we’ve shared. From the simple everyday delights to the adrenalin rush thrills and all the moments in between, how kind of God to introduce me to motherhood with Angela. Being her mom has been one of my grandest adventures of all!